I haven't been on deviantart in forever. most people on here have probably forgotten about it lol. life is crazy lately. I have over 1000 new deviations on my inbox and 261 messages. hm. have to check them out.

About five months since my last journal entry.. oops! Well I suppose a lot has happened since then... I don't really know about big things (exceptforMikeygettingkilledbutIamtryingt otalkhappyhere) but a lot of small things..
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!! on March 31st (as you all should know.)
Another thing I want to be known: I currently have 1,445 new messages. Yes--1,445. So that would explain why my commenting has been so very rare lately. >.< SORRY!!! FORGIVE MEEE!! ::sobs::
*cough* anywho.. if you want me to visit your site to catch up or if you wants me to see/comment on a particular piece, or if you just wanna talk! then leave me a comment and I will definitely get on that. I still love you all but but I dunno.. heh. What to say, what to say.. I'm really sleepy right now so I'm off to bed. Okie ni ni everyone!
.:Stefany:.

I'm feeling slightly sick to my stomach... not like I have to puke, but just weird.
And... today is a horrible day for me. Today is a year since Josh McKay died.
All of these memories.... are flooding into my head. Past things, memories I didn't even know I still had..


"Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home
....They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me"
"holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you?
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
I'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black"



I'm just crying and its so hard to take..
Our relationship was beautiful, even if it was non-romantic. It had its own special charm, we could always make each other laugh and I miss it..

TODAY IS JHONEN'S BIRTHDAY!
A magical day that rises above all others. It is most beautiful. On this day, a man who is a genius above all others was born!
Its kind of funny, because I received a gift today in the mail from my most WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND! Its a Tinker Bell snow globe that is absolutely adorable! ^^ And it was a surprise! Yay!
I had a dream once that Jhonen adopted me. I know, I'm weird. But it was wonderful! XD Aah I'm in a good mood. (in case you couldn't tell)

Ahahahahaaaaaaaa....... I love you Kyle! (and my friends, but I love you in a platonic, friendly way, not the same way as I love Kyle. you know)
HEY LOOK AT WHAT MY BIRTH MONTH REVEALS ABOUT ME!
What does my birth month reveal about me??
March: Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody

Its all true, ya know. WEIRD!

From 'onestar's journal:
"Okay, folks. Here's the deal.

By now, you've heard that Scott Jarkoff, aka °jark, is now a FORMER Staff Member.

I'm not privy to the whys, wherefores, and whatever-the-hells are going on behind the scenes here. Don't ask me anything about that. I know probably just as much as you do.

DeviantArt, in my opinion, is becoming less about COMMUNITY and more about CORPORATION.

So what we need to do is bring back THE COMMUNITY.

Here's my suggestion.

On August 7th, DA turns five years old. Five years for a website like this should be a grand affair, one big event.

So don't submit anything on August 7th.

I'm talking a print, a deviation, a scrap...nothing.

Instead, just leave a comment. Visit a user's page and just say hi.

If someone wants to buy a subscription that day, I'm all in favor or it. It'll keep the servers going, and anything that keeps the hamster running is a good thing.

BUT...I think folks shouldn't buy any prints. No print subscriptions. That goes against the COMMUNITY theme for the day.

We want to put the COMMUNITY back into DA.

If you're in favor of this, if you believe in the power this COMMUNITY has, then join me. Post this in your own journal. Spread the word to everyone, with a and a .

We might be touting at windmills like Don Quixote.

But if enough of us do it, we might be able to remind everyone that this is a COMMUNITY first and foremost.

Join me. On August 7th, let's take back DeviantArt."

We need to do this. Without COMMUNITY and the love, there is no deviantART.

AND REMEMBER:
(from °jark)
"Remain civil while asking questions. Rioting solves nothing. Diplomacy is necessary. Whether you submit art or write comments, it must remain well-mannered. Trust me when I say that; the administration favors, and listens, to those who can frame their arguments in an intelligent and courteous manner. People who lash out are summarily dismissed by the staff.
Remember one thing: the community comes before anything and everything. It is why I had devoted the last 5 years of my life to deviantART; it is why I sacrificed so much.
Never forget the community."

[link] That is what my boyfriend Kyle has to say on the matter, and I believe his words are well-written and ring true.

[link] My friend Taylor tells of her reasons to shed tears over this, it is an emotional account and it made me sniffle a bit.